{It's definitely been down...}

I've slacked SO much on working out it's ridiculous! I really think it's some type of depression because I didn't start slacking off until all that ended with C. I quit working out with him and quit working out. I only go 1-2 times a week  now. I've GOT to get back in it. Not going is making me more depressed but I don't know what to do about it. I find myself too tired to go. I literally stayed in bed all day Wednesday. :(  I did go and get on the elliptical for 40 minutes today. I had to get a little mean with C though so maybe he'll leave me alone now and I can get over it and this stupid little funk I'm in.

{No Change}

There really hasn't been any change to my weight loss progress. It's my fault though. I definitely slowed down for the month of June and, so far, July as well.

 You'd think I'd be more motivated since I quit working out with Chris but since all that with him, I've lost some motivation. I've started getting some of it back but only based on how I feel while working out. Anyway, here's July's updated photo's.

{Crappy}

It's been a crappy few weeks of working out since I've been able to start drinking again. I've learned I don't want to drink much any more at all. A beer here or there will be ok but I cannot start drinking like I use to. It makes me completely NOT want to workout. I've had more off days since then and I feel like crap. I'm going to use my "break-up" to fuel the fire again.  Here are new pictures a month exactly later from the last ones.

Damn how do you get rid of back fat?!

So, I'm going to begin the Body Building Fat Loss program and see how that helps also. Since I won't be working out with Chris any longer, it will keep me doing free weights instead of the machines.  It also has a nutritional aspect, recommending 1660 calories, 166g carbs, 166g protein, and 37g fat for my daily intake. It also recommends supplements to take.  I'm already doing a pre-workout energizer and protein shakes. I need to be more consistent with the shakes though.

{Not a good week}

This past week has not been a good week for working out. I didn't work out much. Today I hope to change that and just get back into it. I "broke-up" with the guy I've been seeing and he's also been my workout partner for the last month and a half. Now I've got to find my workout groove again without him.

{Hard Work}

How was yesterday a horrible, yet great, workout? I felt like crap after waking up from my nap.  I knew I should have worked out earlier in the day.  No, I chose to wait until later to workout with Chris. I took a nap, not a long one though, and felt horrible when I woke up.  My stomach hurt. I just felt ill.  I took more of my workout energizer to see if that would help. It did give me some energy. I got there before Chris because I know when he says he'll leave for the gym in 10 minutes, it means I'll have at least 30-40 minutes of elliptical time to myself before he gets there. I definitely don't hate on that.  Anyway, so I was able to do 20 minutes before he got there.  My stomach was upset so I didn't join him right away but had to use the restroom.  Ick.  I felt slightly better after that.  The workout though was just terrible in the sense that I did NOT want to be there, my stomach was crampy the whole time, I got light-headed a lot, and just a little nauseated. Overall though, it was a good workout in the sense that I lifted more on one machine and that felt great.  I also did pretty well on the rest I think because I didn't feel good so pushed myself a little harder.

{First goal met}

I'm not sure if it's because of my hard work or because I've had some type of stomach bug this last day and a half, but I've met my first weight loss goal of 5 lbs lost! My ticker says 7lbs lost because I was at 152 when I first started this but I'm not sure if those 2lbs were water weight or not since my weight usually varied at the time by a pound or two.  I didn't workout last night because I had to be at work an hour early for a meeting and because I took a Zyrtec for my allergies; which meant I slept until it was time for me to wake-up and get dressed.  It's doubtful I workout today also.  My stomach still hurts and I haven't eaten anything that's been able to stay in my system for long.

{Heart palpitations}

Yesterday I left work early to get my most recent tattoo. I was speaking with a co-worker though before I left and mentioned that I would make Saturday my "off" day because of the tattoo.  Once I mentioned that, I started to feel kind of unsettled and my heart started beating faster.  I realized thought of NOT going to the gym was an unpleasant one.  I kept to it though and did not go.  I definitely needed an off day anyway. Today may turn into an off day as well.  We'll see how I feel later in the day.

On another note, I stepped on the scale just to see if my bloated weight left and to see if I was back to my new "normal" weight. The bloated weight did indeed leave and took an extra pound with it.  :)  146!  :)